whats running through my head

im laying here in bed, not wanting to sleep, but at the same time feeling the loving gentle pull of that blissful thoughtlessness that is sleeping. i don't know where im going with this but i know that if i could figure out, everything, i would feel a little more calm, like if i knew what my purpose is in this life i would try harder to achieve what i could and do the most i feel i can. i don't think im makeing any sense right now, it is after all 3 am. well im gonna sleep now, and ill probably post a new blog entry that can try and make sense of this. good night.