Deiderata - Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul. 

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

The Four Candles (Author Unknown)

The Four Candles burned slowly. Their ambiance was so soft you could hear them speak...
The first candle said, "I Am Peace, but these days, nobody wants to keep me lit." Then Peace's flame slowly diminishes and goes out completely.
The second candle says, "I Am Faith, but these days, I am no longer indispensable." Then Faith's flame slowly diminishes and goes out completely.
Sadly the third candle spoke, "I Am Love and I haven't the strength to stay lit any longer." "People put me aside and don't understand my importance. They even forget to love those who are nearest to them." And waiting no longer, Love goes out completely.
Suddenly a child enters the room and sees the three candles no longer burning. The child begins to cry, "Why are you not burning? You are supposed to stay lit until the end."
Then the Fourth Candle spoke gently to the little boy, "Don't be afraid, for I Am Hope, and while I still burn, we can re-light the other candles."
With shining eyes the child took the candle of Hope and lit the other three candles.
With the candle of Hope we can bring Peace, Faith, and Love back in our lives.

Hurt

I don't know if you will ever see this, but I need to get this off my chest.
We were best friends, or so I though, I considered you a sister, I was always there for you, always happy for you, especially when you found your current boyfriend, I planned a surprise party for your birthday, spent money on you without a second thought.  Why couldn't you be happy for me when I found Matt, why were you so against my happiness?  You were selfish, stubborn, and downright nasty.  I lost a sister when you left me, and that is a scar I will always carry.  I forgive you though, it's the right thing to do, I had to get my feelings out somehow, and like I said I don't know if you will ever even see this, but if you do, know that I will always care about you, no matter how you hurt me, and if you take anything from this, be happy for your friends, no matter what, even if it isn't something you would choose for yourself, it's their choice, you like someone for their good qualities, but you love them for their faults.  Don't condemn them for life just because you don't agree with them, because in the end its only you who loses.
Oh and stop talking about your friends behind their backs, its very rude, I won't name names, but she didn't deserve you telling her secret without her consent.

My mind is a steel trap

Ha ha not really, ok, so not very many people read my blog, so whatever, I recently joined weight watchers so that I could get my life back on track, I just want to be healthy and feel good about myself, I'm not trying to be scary skinny, but lets face it, even if I tried my curves are too much for any skinny twig body to handle and I'm fine with that, in fact I love my curves, what I don't love is the fact I'm teetering on the edge of making myself really sick with the extra weight I've gained through the stress of high school/ college drama and its time for a change.  I'm going to eat well, exercise and feel better about how I'm treating my body, because seriously its suffered a lot of crap because of me.  So this is the real me, overweight, and unhealthy, and I'm ready to accept myself for who I am and make myself healthier for myself, because lets face it, in the end I'm the only one who is with myself every moment of everyday, and I want to stick around for a long ass time
Ok I'm done ranting, wish me luck!
-Sammi

(Giving mobile blogging a try)Ok, so i recently set up my phone so that i could blog from it but haven't tried it until now, fingers crossed, hope this works

Winter Term Introductions

I love how every term there is at least one teacher who asks you to introduce yourself, and this term its my Intro to Computer Applications teacher, he wanted us to tell who we are, what are major is and our relationship to computers. It was funny to me because it got me thinking. I love computers, or I should say Im addicted to them, I literally cannot live without computers, and then when I think about it some more I remember I didnt always have computers in my life, I didnt have a cell phone, a laptop, a kindle. I got my first desktop computer when I was 8, my first cell phone at 11, my laptop at 17, and my kindle at 21. The funniest thing was when I realized how my addiction directly affects the amount of errors I experience. My desktop died when I decided to try to play with the colors displaying on the monitor, I have in 10 years gone thru 8 phones, none of which lasted without breaking (except the one that was stolen, I dont know if that one survived), my laptop has committed suicide 6 times in the last 4 years, and just last night my kindle froze on me while I was using it, which makes me wonder if I wouldnt just be better off without computers? How is your relationship with computers? Do you have any interesting stories about computer errors? Do you have any suggestions as to why electronics/ computers dont work well with me? Id love to know what I may be doing wrong.

Loves and Hugs,

Sammi

New Year New Me!

I am done feeling sorry for myself, I look at what few posts I have on here and I am amazed that I was so down in the dumps in just about all of them, I'm going to start being a happier person, and with the help of my loving boyfriend (hopefully soon fiance) that will be the easiest part of the new year. The hard part involves school, work, and my health, I plan to take charge of those this year, it may be hard, but I'm gonna go for it. I need to keep up with studying and homework, I need to prepare for co-op job placement (hopefully working with people who hope to better themselves, not stay low on the totem pole) and get my health in check, I've been lazy and haven't worked out as much as I should because of the stress in other parts of my life, but now that it's the new year I'm not letting anything get out of hand, and so in turn everything will have a time and will be attended to.

So... heres to a brand new me!